What the heck do you mean "socialist" tendencies?

See my Introduction post if you're totally confused.  Regardless of political persuasion, I am not sure what place socialism should have in the free market workplace.  My experience was everyone with similar experience levels and titles received similar benefits.  Sounds great, right?  It is great until you add performance to the equation.  In my work experience, those who worked less, did not take responsibility for their staff, did not research their own technical issues (where I could never use "I don't know") and relied on others for the "soft" stuff  (new processes, new software training, review of new technical literature or legislation) were not compensated much differently from those who worked more and did all of the aforementioned things.  For the first ten years, I was certainly among those who worked hard, took responsibility for my staff and was highly involved and visible in the "soft" stuff.  I began to lose interest.  The benchmark and/or the expectation was not clear.  And, as personal tragedies began to unfold in a short period of time, I lost my passion.  I could not find a reason to maintain the same level of commitment, because it didn't matter.  I hated who I was becoming.  It was contrary to how I was raised and to my value-based belief system.  It's my fault for allowing my character to become affected.  But, I readily admit to taking advantage of the lack of accountability in the system knowing I would always be grouped with the same individuals, regardless.  And, I would not be given any authority.  Like any good socialist group, we had a dictatorship, not a democracy.  Less than five executives made all decisions for a company of 70+.  Although forums were provided (for nothing more than courtesy) for sharing ideas,  ideas shared were rarely taken seriously, especially if it was not what the executives wanted.